Sunday, July 18, 2010

The Last Two Weeks

These last two weeks have been life altering. It started with a trip to the beach to spend a few days with friends and it ended with an epiphany on wealth and health.

There I was, at the beach, just the mommies and the kids, wondering how my friend could afford a 2nd home at all much less one walking distance to the ocean. When I spoke to my husband that night, he suggested I ask her point blank. "Ask her how she swings two mortgages?" What he didn't know was that they also have a 3rd house that they rent out so actually they have three mortgages. So I asked. Her reply was immediate, "I don't buy anything that isn't second hand, that's cars to clothes. I shop for groceries at the cheapest stores. I don't spend on extras." And her reply, fast and concise as it was, hit me like a ton of brick... I'm to blame for us not having the financial security she does.

It was an awakening moment. All the shopping, all the entertainment, all the restaurants, all the extras, this lifestyle we've come to accept as our way of life, was financially flawed.
And that was it. I was done spending.

Armed with her list of tricks to help me get on track, I came home from the beach ready to tighten the purse strings. First up, no more eating out - which we did at least 3 times a week. Next, extras like Starbucks, movies, ice cream man - gone! Then an itemized list of current debt and how to reduce/eliminate nearly everything. Paid off my husband's car loan with my daughters savings - she'll make more interest from me than from the bank anyway and she doesn't charge the interest rate the dealer does. There are of course, things I am not willing to give up like all my daughters extra curricular classes but I can certainly suggest to friends that instead of getting together to go shopping, we can get together for coffee... at my house instead of Duncin' Donuts.

I hit the ground running and haven't looked back. Just this weekend, while my husband and daughter were away on a daddy/daughter camping trip, I certainly would have spent the entire time shopping had I not had this change of heart. Instead, armed with various gift cards and coupons, I came home laden with shopping bags and only spent $20. Not bad! It's my hope that by the end of the year, our current finances are cleaned up and by the end of next year, I'll have a vacation home. I could kick myself for not doing this sooner, but I'm doing it now so I'm not looking back.

At the same time that I was excited to begin the BIG SAVE, I began having strange physical ailments. It was so bad that I called the doctor to make an appointment - something I never do. When I gave them a list of my symptoms, the nurse asked me if I wanted to come right in or go immediately to the ER. What?! Long story short, and if you've already read my last two posts you already know, I was diagnosised with pre-diabetes.

Much like when I came home charged for a spending freeze, so too was I really looking forward to making the lifestyle changes I needed to ward off or reverse the path to diabetes. I spent the whole afternoon after my appointment researching what exactly it was and what steps I had to take. With proper diet and exercise, I am going to be able to alter my current path. Day four of eating right and exercising. I'm not even hungry, though I still hate working out. This time it's going to be different though. This time, I'm changing my body, not to look good, but to live.

Quite a bit of changes these last two weeks, not to mention 3 blog posts during that time when I havn't written anything in months. "A new leaf" to be sure. All in the hopes of a new life ahead.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

The First Day of the Rest of My Life

Learning yesterday that I am pre-diabetic has thrown me into a mixed emotion bag.

I had a rush of adrenaline upon hearing my blood work results. A combination of fear and energy. In moments, I was ready to fight, willing to cut out everything from my diet that (I love) had put me in the place I was, and prepared to jump into a exercise routine with (literally) both feet.

I spent the next few hours researching everything the Internet had to offer me in the way of knowledge about the disease, diet changes I had to make, exercises that would be essential to reversing the course I was on... see, I'm already using the word "was".

The warning shots I received yesterday have presented me with a rare gift... I chance to correct what I have been doing wrong for so long, get back to the weight and shape I used to be in, and most importantly, make a U turn on the road to Type 2 Diabetes.

I just finished a 2 mile walking workout. Doesn't sound like much, but for someone who hasn't done any real exercising in month, it's a fairly huge first step.

I also have been closely monitoring what I ate today having made easy to follow menus yesterday. I haven't yet fallen off the wagon.

In the past, it's been easy enough to say, "Oh well, one little slip. I'll diet again tomorrow. I'll workout tomorrow" and then tomorrow never came. Now, everything I do or don't do will have a profound effect on my future. And no chocolate truffle or french baguette is worth that.

Today, is the first day of the rest of my life. I'm ready for the challenge. I'm ready to make the chance.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Blood Work Results

Diagnosis: Pre-Diabetes.

I'm still in the early stages of coming to terms with what needs to be done. I have the power to turn the tide and slow down or reverse this disease, and I plan on doing just that.

I'm not a "woe is me" person and I have no patience for being sick. The growing list of symptoms over the past week, (that if I really think about it have been present to a lesser extent for months and I did nothing about it) were the warning shots. It's time to fire back!

If you're reading this, I'm not looking for pity nor put-downs. I'm fully aware that I brought this on myself and I'm more than capable of handling the situation myself. [Anger is one of the early stages of acceptance if you're noting a "tone".]

More on the subject later. For now, I'm going to research what needs to be done.
Thank you for listening.